that night we were able feel each other, turned freezing cold
deeply slumbering, to the depths of release
the feeling, is a strange sensation far removed from me
days that seemed so beautiful, in the poison flower garden
from that day I felt such extreme aggravation onward,
I've been looking for someone else.
that night it all fell apart will never be again
everytime I meet you, I've lied.
because now I'm so far removed from there.
the fact that I can't love you anymore
weighs heavilly on me, tortures and saddens me
the night was too long, it pains me
the accident which happened to you, causes me concern
unable to say any words of comfort, I cooled to you
I was there.
If you don't care that it's not for real, I'll hold you
For you, I looked as much as you wanted
while getting fucked by someone else…
so that I can be even just a little closer to you,
even if its not real, I stifled my heart for now
that first and final night has passed
you pretended not to know until the very end